Forfeit

I felt the butterflies
But the butterflies had led my heart to someone else
You opened up your heart,
I played it from the start
I guess you would've hated me know,
cause i'm to blame

Thousands of why playing in my head
You maybe gone, but I will never forget
Questions, is part of our daily life
"I'm fine" that's a fucking lie
Lets switch place, feel the pain, and I'm sure you'll understand
How can I start all over again? Where should I begin?
Oh dreamland please let me in, It's already 6 in the morning
I'm standing in front of the mirror
They can see it crystal clear
The scars in every smile
That I wrote down in this paper

Oh I should know by now that you truly understand
I felt the butterflies had led my heart to someone else
You opened up your heart,
I played it from the start
I guess you would've hated me know, cause I'm to blame

Regret regret, I will never regret
Every single minute that we had
Forget forget, I will never forget
All the promises that you made

Oh I should know by now that you truly understand
I felt the butterflies
But the butterflies had led my heart to someone else
You opened up your heart, I played it from the start
I guess you would've hated me know, cause I'm to blame

Oh let me catch your heart because yesterday I watched it fall
Oh please let me catch your heart because yesterday i watched it fall

Will there be my better day
When will these scars will fade away?
I saw your smiles from miles away
I swear you'll never fade away

I wish that you can stay
Pretending to be okay
I am crawling cause I'm scare
My past has showed me the way

I'm standing in the rain
I swallow every single pain
Cause I can't turn back once again
I slept with no star that always shining

All alone with this string
I sing I'm suffering
To see you dancing left me wonder why
I can't stop thinking about you

How many times I have to be like this

Things Happen

to much happen to me as below:

1. meeting with her father
2. housing loan approve
3. own the strike freedom pg
4. lots of work at the office which is unmanageble
5. etc...

PERIT JERIH LELAKI

*LELAKI adalah ciptaan TUHAN yg paling KUAT*

Dia bina MASA DEPAN mereka sekeluarga dengan *hutang* dan membayar ansuran

Dia telah bersusah payah tapi masih selalu *dimarahi*

Bayangkan waktu kecil dimarahi IBUBAPA, Sekolah dimarahi GURU, kerja diMarahi BOSS, lepas kahwin diMarahi ISTERi, tua diMarahi ANAK CUCU ...

Kehidupan dia berakhir hanya untuk *MENGALAH demi KEBAHAGIAAN orang lain*

Kalau dia keluar rumah, kata org dia *MERAYAP*

Kalau dia tinggal di rumah, kata org dia *MALAS*

Kalau dia marah anak2, kata org dia *GARANG*

Kalau dia tak marah, kata org dia lelaki *TIDAK TEGAS*

Kalau dia tak bagi isteri  bekerja, kata org dia *KONTROL BINI*

Kalau dia benarkan isteri
bekerja, kata org dia *MAKAN gaji isteri*

Kalau dia dengar apa kata ibunya, kata org dia *ANAK MAK*

Kalau dia dengar kata isterinya, kata org *DIA Di bawah Ketiak Isteri*

Kalau dia banyak MENOLONG wanita yang memerlukan dikatakan *HIDUNG BELANG*

Kalau TAK MAHU TOLONG wanita lain, katanya *KEJAM*

*Tapi di tengah TERPAPAR segala macam tuduhan, dia tetap KUAT*

- Aku Lelaki -

Versys CKD 2011

Ehem2..huhuh nothing can describe me now..just watch

sorry tak pandai nak upload gmbr..huhuh...

16 Aug 2011, receive the key.

AKU & KAMU

1. Aku:robot
2. Kamu:tak tahu
3. Aku:cakap
4. Kamu:dengar
5. Aku:suruh
6. Kamu:dengar
7. Aku:jahat
8. Kamu:baik
9. Aku:blurrr
10. Kamu:hilang arah
11. Aku:diam
12. Kamu:ckp tak ingat
13. Aku:cari duit
14. Kamu:cari duit
15. Aku:guna duit
16. Kamu:simpan
17. Aku:bising
18. Kamu:yer la
19. Aku:bagi solution
20. Kamu:aku punya lagi baik
21. Aku:xtau nak ckp ape dah
22. Kamu:xnak cara la tu
23. Aku:ckp cam ni
24. Kamu:ckp cam tu
25. Aku:nak mcm tu
26. Kamu:nak macam ni
27. Aku:selamba
28. Kamu:selamba badak
29. Aku:kerja
30. Kamu:kerja apa bz tul
31. Aku:cinta
32. Kamu:cinta
33. Aku:bnyk usaha
34. Kamu:usaha
35. Aku:bnyk lalui
36. Kamu:tak lepas2 lagi
37. Aku:ngantuk
38. Kamu:dah tido
39. Aku:buat
40. Kamu:buat
41. Aku:redho
42. Kamu:pasrah
43. Aku:mati
44. Kamu:hidup
45. Aku & Kamu:menanti sebuah jawapan.

MY NEW SONY WALKMAN & .....

Just after work, me n jah went to KL Low Yatt to find something...and i bought MP3 player..hua ha ha its look like this...and what make me excited is New Strike Freedom PG already in the market...hehhe this remind me to work hard to buy it..hehhe i'll buy....

AKU DAN SAYAM part I

Dear Love...this is for Eu...

10 Dec 2010

Start my day with early morning, got to clock in to the office before others, bcoz today what i'm be informed there is payment from BPP, the CR expected receive yesterday, but just because the officer who issue the voucher on course so there will be delay in payment...OMG..this is what i'm afraid happen is just happened, this day i must ensure new batch receive by operations teams.

hari ni aku demam (hu hu hu) so hand over the task to Kak Ju, then g klinik dpt la MC...Yessss...tak sabarnya nak g LCCT...start my FZ aku tu...Vrommmmmm...i'm heading to LCCT...ngan hati yg girang..heheh......zassssss...

sampai kat LCCT aku terus g kat screen arrival, tengok flight AK5281 belum landing lagi...untuk tidak boring...aku p beli paper & air mineral..duduk sambil menunggu dengan penuh perasaan yg berbunga2....baru jer duduk jap ader mat salleh dtg tnya "How to go to KL"..huhuh..cheh...rupanya mamat ni dari rusia...ckp english pun tungang terbalik...anyway aku guide dia g kat tempat bas...

aku kembali ke arrival board.."Wah....Syg aku dah landing...yeay...heheh....aku pun saje jer nyorok sket...nak wak surprise..hehehe..bab aku reply msg dia ckp aku kat putrajaya lagi....aku pun tunggu dengan penuh kesabaran...hehehe...lama jugak rupanya,,huhu...then aku telihat kelibat si comey memakai baju hijau...yup it is Apple Green guest what?...my Syg look slim sket la, huuhhu...aku tengok dia duduk..thrn aku menghampiri dia...Assalamualaikum,,aku menyapa..huhuh...Owh..indahnya dunia ini...hehe..then sembang la kejap...tnya cam ne pejalanan tadi..then kami pun beredar.....

dek kerana kelaparan, kami terus ke Putrajaya Sentral. sempat mkn curry puff 3 biji buat alas perut, then take the ERL to the KL Sentral, bestnya nek benda ni ngan gewe hik hik hik...

sampai jer tempat petama we spend the time is Sogo...yer la beria betul Syg aku ni nak p sane, dah nama Gurl kan...tetap shopping huhuh...tiba je kat sana perut sgt lapo....trus g mkn kat secret recepi..who know, nak d jadikan cerita...aku tenampak pasangan couple huhu..org tu Fadil & Mok Nik...aku pun ape lagi..trus join mkn kat table diorang..huhuhu..lame betul tak jumpa dengan diorg..klu tak silap la since 2006...last jumpa masa kat machang..huh..tgok Mok Nik..cm tu jer kurus kering but si Fadil ni agak bulat la sket, then lepas solat jumaat kitorang bepecah, aku ngan Syg jalan2 melayan karenah Syg ku yg manje tu...huhu abis tempat pusing finally beli jugak la beg duit..huhu Branded la jugak...bnyk gak duit Sygku ni huhu....smpai ptg besama Syg ku d KL...

Lebih kurang kul 1730 sampai ke Putrajaya Sentral, solat asar dulu kat sini, then heading to Alamanda, what i was told is, Cik Rita menunggu kita org kat sane, owh forgot to mention yesterday i already bought 3 ticket Narnia...nak dijadikan cerita masa dah kat Alamanda tu tercari2 la si Cik Rita ni..hampeh tul dia park kat North and we in South area..huhu how come we meet...nak tak nak kene g kat kete dia jugak, yer la nak transfer beg2 Sygku ke kereta kan...so we decide to go to Cik Rita car's...beg berat ni cam ne?...hik hik hik..Sygku ni bijak..dia guna Trolly tuk punggah beg2 tu..nice job syg....

Once jumpa Cik Rita, suka la Sygku ni yer la jumpa kwn baik kan...aku hanya memerhatikan diorg dok sembag rancak just kdg2 aku interrupt, yg paling best dia blanje makan..heheh...Sygku mkn Sizzling Yee Mee..sedap la jugak, aku yg tukang mknya huhu..best....after that we go to Hall 1 to enjoy movie...

Abis jer movie tu masing2 penat dah..Cik Rita kerja seharian, kami plak dok datim seharian hua..ha..ha...mmg puas hati la citer pun best...then kami bepisah balik ke rumah masing2 aku blek ker GreenChamber and Sygku ikut Cik Rita blek ke umah, aku plak trus blek umah..mandi jap then letak kepala trus tetido...

What a beautiful day....Thanks Syg.....

to be continue...